Notes to Cindy: The Archives

Last night was eventful. This morning even more so. The social worker came to speak to me last night. I told her about CJ sexually harassing me and the glass he had in his room. CJ was, shortly thereafter, moved to the otherside of the ward. Jason and a new boy, Jake, moved oveer to my hall. At about twenty-three-thirty I was moved to the short hall. This morning was okay. Then in the middle of scroggs we were all called back to the ward- EVERYONE! We were all searched. They're still searchin...

Today was excellent for the most part. I spent two hours sitting right beside Nay! We skipped the last two classes for Chrismas Social. She told me she wanted to spend the rest of her life with me. She said she wanted our first kiss for Christmas. I gave her the note I wrote last night. She was busy tucking it in her bra, behind a folder, and unaware of what exactly she was doing, I tore the folder away. Oh, it was hilarious! I'm sure it would have been extremely embarassing if anyone had see...

Yes, triple digits suck. I figured I throw that out there. I got to spend time with Nay in fourth period. That was beyond pleasurable. She told her dad about me and read him one of my songs. He said I was every-dad's worst nightmare. Ha! Cody gave me a note to pass to Nay, which of course, I've read. I've included my own input both in my head and on paper in the brackets:

 

"Natalie, I promised to tell you my story, but that's another letter entirely. So instead, allow...

After lastnight's entry, I would assume that it's perfectly understandable to not want to wake up, or even consider that the possibility of it exists. I had Treatment Team. Nothing much there. I should be leaving in January. Nay's off one-to-one! Yay! I can't wait to see her tomorrow, without her shadow, once again! It does lift my spirits! Daniel and Isaiah are both on one-to-one. Isaiah actually wanted it! Another Zack is in our midst. He's a tad cooler, though. Cody vaguely confirmed my wo...

I fell asleep at around eight lastnight. What I missed I'm grateful to miss, for I would have never fallen asleep afterwards. That was a peaceful and blissful oblivion of transient coma. Cody came back. Yes, and a nurse asked me this morning about elopement. I told him that we never planned elopement, but Cody had had some glass. I didn't know he was here then. CJ bit me. I hate being bitten. It stis my brain too much. I think I'm going to walk around for a while. We're on the courtyard. I'll...

It's another Fun Friday without her. Only CJ, D Anne, a new girl, and I were there. I sent in the invitation. Just from what little I've told him, he already seems pretty excited! This is good. I need excitement. Nay is still on one-to-one. I told De Anne to forward my love and greetings to her. Seth is going into a jealous phase again. I told him about the mission plan. Though he disagreed with it, he still promised to stay out of the way. I talked to the psychologist today, for the first ti...

Nay said, yesterday, that she may be getting off. But, I can't help but to be a pessimist. It's only predictible in places like this. So... Yeah, I'm writing in pencil. It's one that Cody had taken. I guess I just inherited it. Fuck. God only knows what is to happen today. Murphy's Law: "If anything can go wrong, it will, and at the worst possible of times." I got that with a bunch of other principles from school. Some of them including, "Trouble never comes at a convenient time"; "No amount ...

That's fucking it! It's over! I'm fucked! Cody's going to jail today. Nay's had a rough couple of nights and can't come to school and I am about ready to kill myself, if not someone else! I got one hour of sleep lastnight. ONE! From five to six-one. I'm dead all around- mentally physically, socialy.... I can't see Nay because of her school restricitions and fuck knows what other shit, so it's not like I'm able to talk to her about another front. Lastnight was IT- the fucking brutal end- and I...

FUCK! We had a fucking hold up! Damnit! Shit... uh, well, Cody and I went over the goods and bads of changing the mission date tonight. I think the best thing is that I will be able to see Nay in school today, and brief her on the plan, so she can plan around it. It will make things much easier, regardless. It's about six-thirty, now. I may write more later on today, or you may not hear from me until after we reach a safe zone. Whish me luck. Oh yeah, and midnight will be the beginning of my ...

I guess this is it... My stuff is packed. I'm ready to leave the nest. I could be leaving for Whittaker any day now. Natalie has court soon, and could be going off to Juvie. Cody has no hope of ever going home. We all want to go home, but we can't, so we're making our own. It will most likely take place tomorrow night- well, at least, if we're lucky.... Nay and I have spent all this time planning and finally, thanks to Cody, it's ready to be put to use. The plan is complex and ergo, efficient...

Another standard day at Broughton.... CJ, Seth, and I rolled down the small hill in the courtyard over and over again. It brought back some childhood memories.

I've gotten fairly far along in my comic. The part I described yesterday is the prologue. The unfinished scene has four photos, now. It opens up with the detective announcing his arrival at Jacob's condo to the officer two states away. It ends with a feeling of coming victory for the investigators. The new part, "Part One", goes...

So... it's Thanksgiving. It's the first I've ever missed in my life. I got the note to Nay, yesterday. Staff suspected something. I hope they didn't tak it. Dad called. Scott thinks I'm sick. It was extremely uneventful, today. I did write a new song, titled "Til Death", which will be the theme of my comic strip of the same title. The song is about a man who murders his girlfriend, then kills himself. At the end of the song, the soul of the girl reads the epitaph of the boy's grave, the soul ...

I'm off one-to-one! God, I hope it stays that way. Cody got some glass! He really only gave me one of the peices, but a bunch was left on the bathroom floor, which I've cleared of evidence. Cody put a bunch of cuts on his fucking wrist, when we just had a talk about cutting in the right places! He doesn't even have any long-sleeved shirts! For an individual of such high extremes in intelligence, that was a severely phlegmatic move. I suppose it makes sense though. He has only jail to look for...

Nay says she should be off one-to-one soon. Oh, God, how I hope it's true! Brian left. He gave me his Myspace: "bryanztheman". Hell. He knows Chelsea... I gave him Autumn's contact information- one can never be too sure. Seth is saying he's bisexual. I'm yet to determine his accuracy. Oh, well. I got to use the keys yesterday. It could have been my escape if I were careless. I'm bored beyond description. The timing is appropiate, yes, as it is bed time, but the whole day has become too predic...

Fun Friday: It was cool. Brian, Cody, Eli, Jefree, De Aanne, Leanna, and Michelle were all there. It was movie night- my least favorite. Randy is back. Yes, the same Randy who used to make my life hell. Fuck him. Anthony and Curtis left today. All the new kids are leaving so early! I need Nay to fix herself up and play heer innocent act so I can get his note to her! I talked to the doctor today and he said that they're more along the line of looking for a date than a place. I got another Hemm...

It felt like I went to bed at around one-thirty to 2 in the morning lastnight, but it was actually more like fifteen before eleven. Mark S. moved downstairs. The other Mark moved up. Today was rather uneventful, which I would normally complain about, but after lastnight. I needed it. I really did. The weekend is finally over. School welcomes me back again. What do I have to do to make it stay after Friday? Hell, Mondays are always half-days anyway. Oh joy, now I've another pathetic reason to ...

I wasn't able to read, write, draw, or anything else that I normally do on weekend nights, here, yesterday. The Staff turned my light off at eleven like they do on weekdays. I tried to argue but cut short and reluctantly willed myself to sleep. I forgot to mention that we have two Zachs' now, too. It's strange. Fun Friday was okay. I got to really meet Brittany and this ne Lauren. They're both really cool. Today sucked on all levels. We went to the awards closet and I got a few markers. Staff...

I just spent the last twenty minutes, or so, drumming two washable markers onto my folder. If I ever wanted to learn real drumming, my talent level could increase if I did this to practice. For Music Group, yesterday- I forgot to mention- I played the violin. Even for the first time, the councilor said I did fairly well. Perhaps I will look into learning. I'm always fussing about needing a violinist for my band. Who says it can't be me? I found out that I'm supposed to go to a Psychiactric Re...