Notes to Cindy: The Archives

Anya came and went. She threatened- no TRIED- to break up with me twice before finally confessing that she's involved with DJ, once even sexually, and that she doesn't want to hurt me anymore. Naturally, I am heartbroken and depressed, but I lover her and I know that we're meant to be together, regardless of the mistakes we make and how terrible those mistakes may be. She'll be moving in with me for a month to see if things can progress financially and emotionally. After this month, she'll be deciding whether to stay with me or to be with DJ. I have to say that I have never felt so betrayed in my short nineteen years of life. No one has ever wronged me so brutally and carelessly, but I still love her, and I may be insane for staying with her, but she's a part of me now, and I've given my whole life over to her. To end this relationship is to end whatever chance I had at lving the life of my dreams.