Notes to Cindy: The Archives

Anya came for Christmas. It started out fine, but I'm pretty sure it was because we were both intoxicated for the first few days. Then, once again, I caught her flirting with DJ. I tried talking to her about it without any success. Tonight, I once again snapped. We were walking towards Sonic and filling out applications, and it dawned on me that I was putting myself through hell for a cheating whore, which is completely stupid, so I walked back to Jasper's. We talked it out and I realized that DJ is just simply a better boyfriend than me, so I decided to just let it go and let her make her own decisions. Thing is that DJ beat me to the punch and gave up on her. I'm not sure whether or not that's the truth, from all the lies she's told me, but even if it is, she's willing to let me go before she would ever let go of DJ, which once again proves the point that DJ is better than me, and she just doesn't want to feel bad by breaking up with me. Futhermore, she tried repeatedly to break up with me and I wouldn't let go. So, now I've let go. If she wants to leave me, I understand and respect her decision. I'm also considering breaking up with her and giving her a chance to explore other options. I guess the best thing to do is to talk it over with her and letting her decide.